the devils workshop

i wantd2 rite smthing but cunt undrstnd what 2 say so.. dts y..

Tired

4 years back my cousin got me a shirt from Thailand which had a print with a dog's photo on it n it said "I'm so tired"..

He said that d moment he saw the shirt d only person he could think of was me.. i felt good that there was something that just reminded him of me but i wondered why this??

now whenever i wear that it reminds me that incident n as a matter of fact i actually feel tired..

people say if you manage your time right you'll have enough to do everything.. all this was like over head transmission for me because i never followed it.. now when m actually trying to do everything within a tight schedule all i feel is m tired all day long..

I wish my cousin had got me more of those shirts to wear everyday 

The Real Me

it struck me one day

And i realized something was missing

i searched all around

but it wasn't clicking..

it made me troubled

i felt disturbed and agitated

my mind wandered

soon enough all the colours too faded

the smile vanished

and anger paved way

the love too disappeared

i felt like i was moving away

after days of anguish and pain

nothing seemed to change

the sun rose and it set too

but there was nothing i was to gain

i then searched within me

and found a hole

something was definitely not in place

guess it was my soul

why did it have to flee?

i was perplexed

there was nothing i could do

but search for the real ME

For the most special people in my Life

you came to me when i was all alone

n lifted my spirits when they were all so low..

you picked me up when i tumbled

and guided me whenever i stumbled

you took my tear turned it into a pearl

let me unwind this mind of an innocent girl

you made me believe i could fly

just as i gave my last sigh

now we are going to part

and to live with this emptiness will be an art

but i promise i wont lose my smile

because i know in my heart

you'll always be closer than a mile..

thank you for making the 14 years of my school life so beautiful

One night stand before the exam..

A month before the exam we feel so free

And decide to go on a bunking spree..

The mind feels light

there's no mood to give the books a fight

gaming n jamming n screaming n talking

tends puts off all our planning..

A week before the exam we tend to buck up

set your clock for an early wake up..

but we all know what button we choose

yea the "snooze"

A glance at our profile, a wink at our book

n our mum starts to give us the scary look!!

A day before the exam you feel so tired

gives us a feeling we shouldn't have been wired

a dip in the pages, seem like ages..

the guilt pulls us down like quicksand

And with the book we have a ONE NIGHT STAND..

When im alone II

Alone and deserted

Lost in the cry of emotions

Weeps a heart longing to be loved,

 

Waiting for a new dawn

To bring with it

Sunshine that it has been craving for times,

 

Wishing the buds

Open their hearts

And spread fragrance all along,

 

The wait seems long

But even a ray brings hope

As once the sun rises

The blossoms follow it too…

When im Alone..

Craving for a soothing touch
waiting for someone to pick me up
longing to laugh till i cry
talking even when nobody listens by
All seems a memory
because now i love to hate that im all alone..

having fun till the roof falls
pretending not to listen even when someone calls
walking together in the rain
always counting on to share the pain
Al seems a memory
because now i love to hate that im all alone..

 

pondering over d past..

happiness n sorrow are said 2 be a state of mind.. but whn is it dt the mind decides to be happy or anger??

whn ur happy everythng arnd u seems vibrant n has a rainbow like feeling n whn ur sad everything seems dull.. though dullness has its own beauty but we're not "pondering" over that fact now..

what m wondering is whn is it dt one's happy.. wht is dt thing which makes our mind happy in turn making us like things around us..

more than that i want to kno wht is that thing which makes our mind cmpletely pissed off making me sing "I Hate Everything About You"..

Why does one person get happy or irritated about d same thing at diffrnt times??

why is dt u tend to raise ur voice 2 prove ur point?? n why cnt we jst listen 2 the other persn if he has a point??

i think we're not im our senses at such times (happiness or Anger) n tend to wander from wht we actually want.. but is it right?? n is that even the question??

my minds filled wid such thoughts.. i hope they get answered soon.. cz if they dnt smthing very extreme will happen..

Quarrels

though we kno dt fights r nt gud.. n they dnt solve nething.. u hv2 be rational whn there's a problem.. n shouting and arguing dsnt solve a thing.. thats what we've been told since d tym we were kiddos..

but ds smthing called a good quarrel exist?? 

m jst cnfused bw dese2 alternatives: is it smthing that instantly helps u find a solution or a fight where both d oppononts are equally enthu n it goes on endlessly??? 

in my case its d latter..

ya well i can be irrational mst tymes to get my way n create a hill out of a mole but isnt dat wht every1 ds jst to prove that they hv a point..

you shout n clench ur teeth.. make expressions dt appear funny 2 an onlooker.. u tk ur anger out on things arnd you.. nd eventually end up hurtin urslf more..n dn we end up realizing hw futile d topic wr n so wer d argumnts..

quarrels r definitely useless but i guess thay hv becum a reflex 2 even d silliest thing tht gets on to ur nerves.. hope the realization of d futility comes b4 we even strt to objct..

ants climbing a hill

all of u mst hv heard bout d ants dt climb up a hill one aftr d other in a prfctly disciplined fashion.. but has ne1 wndered dt d last ant could have lead d way as well.. how is d leader ant chosen??

though d ant at the end of d queue reaches d hill as well but cunt she hv made it b4 the others.. is it that she dsnt have d endeavour or she dsnt hv d qualities??? or is it her own decision..

im feeelin the same way.. the reslts fr d pre medical test are out.. i kno i cud hv been d leading ant.. i am capable of it but...

it ws me hu chose2 be the last ant..

i reached the top but in the end..