When im alone II

Alone and deserted

Lost in the cry of emotions

Weeps a heart longing to be loved,

 

Waiting for a new dawn

To bring with it

Sunshine that it has been craving for times,

 

Wishing the buds

Open their hearts

And spread fragrance all along,

 

The wait seems long

But even a ray brings hope

As once the sun rises

The blossoms follow it too…

When im Alone..

Craving for a soothing touch
waiting for someone to pick me up
longing to laugh till i cry
talking even when nobody listens by
All seems a memory
because now i love to hate that im all alone..

having fun till the roof falls
pretending not to listen even when someone calls
walking together in the rain
always counting on to share the pain
Al seems a memory
because now i love to hate that im all alone..

 

pondering over d past..

happiness n sorrow are said 2 be a state of mind.. but whn is it dt the mind decides to be happy or anger??

whn ur happy everythng arnd u seems vibrant n has a rainbow like feeling n whn ur sad everything seems dull.. though dullness has its own beauty but we're not "pondering" over that fact now..

what m wondering is whn is it dt one's happy.. wht is dt thing which makes our mind happy in turn making us like things around us..

more than that i want to kno wht is that thing which makes our mind cmpletely pissed off making me sing "I Hate Everything About You"..

Why does one person get happy or irritated about d same thing at diffrnt times??

why is dt u tend to raise ur voice 2 prove ur point?? n why cnt we jst listen 2 the other persn if he has a point??

i think we're not im our senses at such times (happiness or Anger) n tend to wander from wht we actually want.. but is it right?? n is that even the question??

my minds filled wid such thoughts.. i hope they get answered soon.. cz if they dnt smthing very extreme will happen..

Quarrels

though we kno dt fights r nt gud.. n they dnt solve nething.. u hv2 be rational whn there's a problem.. n shouting and arguing dsnt solve a thing.. thats what we've been told since d tym we were kiddos..

but ds smthing called a good quarrel exist?? 

m jst cnfused bw dese2 alternatives: is it smthing that instantly helps u find a solution or a fight where both d oppononts are equally enthu n it goes on endlessly??? 

in my case its d latter..

ya well i can be irrational mst tymes to get my way n create a hill out of a mole but isnt dat wht every1 ds jst to prove that they hv a point..

you shout n clench ur teeth.. make expressions dt appear funny 2 an onlooker.. u tk ur anger out on things arnd you.. nd eventually end up hurtin urslf more..n dn we end up realizing hw futile d topic wr n so wer d argumnts..

quarrels r definitely useless but i guess thay hv becum a reflex 2 even d silliest thing tht gets on to ur nerves.. hope the realization of d futility comes b4 we even strt to objct..

ants climbing a hill

all of u mst hv heard bout d ants dt climb up a hill one aftr d other in a prfctly disciplined fashion.. but has ne1 wndered dt d last ant could have lead d way as well.. how is d leader ant chosen??

though d ant at the end of d queue reaches d hill as well but cunt she hv made it b4 the others.. is it that she dsnt have d endeavour or she dsnt hv d qualities??? or is it her own decision..

im feeelin the same way.. the reslts fr d pre medical test are out.. i kno i cud hv been d leading ant.. i am capable of it but...

it ws me hu chose2 be the last ant..

i reached the top but in the end..

d begining after d end..

Its the begining of my new blog after d ending of the previous one..

will get back as soon as i get smthin wrth publishing..